I apologize for the lateness of this blog
Posted By jessi on September 15, 2011
Today was a tough day for me. Work was frustrating as it can be but when you come home and it remains frustrating that is the pits. You know even Paul said that the good things he wanted to do he did not and the bad things that he did not want to do he did. Sometimes our flesh reaches out and we find we do things wrong and we know as soon as we do them that “Oops” that is not what I wanted to do. I went by my husband’s graveside rather than go to service tonight. I think that I needed that time with the love of my life. It has been 8 years since he left this world. Not many people understand how it is when you lose someone. ‘That void’ remains and today was my 62nd birthday. I never thought I would be entering my golden years without him. I simply needed a few moments alone in my thoughts.
Amazing enough when I came home and checked my mail this is what I found:
God has seen YOU struggling with something. God says it’s over. A blessing is coming your way. If you believe in God send this message on, please don’t ignore it, you are being tested.
I needed this for sure, right at this moment. Thank you, Holy Spirit, for knowing just when to send something my way.
My journey continues and I know that I cannot quit. I keep telling all of you that, so here I am. My prayer partner in Arizona shared this with me. She said that a grandmother is supposed to be loving and cheerful. She is supposed to be gentler than parents. When you are a grandma, it’s much easier to overlook the faults of your grandkids and focus on giving them as much love as you can muster. What is wrong in today’s world is that grandparents have become parents to the grandkids…so somewhere that “gentler” character gets replaced with ‘the disciplinarian’. It is at this moment I become the ‘villain’ as most parents are. I become all of a sudden the enemy. God knows that I want to be a grandparent who will be remembered as these words so state:
“A grandma is warm hugs and sweet memories.
She remembers all of your accomplishments and forgets all of your mistakes. She is someone you can tell your secrets and worries to, and she hopes and prays that all your dreams come true.
She always loves you, no matter what. She can see past temper tantrums and bad moods, and makes it clear that they don’t affect how precious you are to her. She is an encouraging word and a tender touch. She is full of proud smiles.
She is the one person in the world who loves you with all her heart, who remembers the child you were and cherishes the person you’ve become.” ~Barbara Cage
Let me be JUST A GRANDMOTHER
I have been told that I will live to 120years. WOW! That means I have a few years to go. I must work on being a peacemaker to my family. God help me to work at this with each day as it passes. Let me use your wisdom and manifest your character to bless my grandchildren. Now I only have 21!!! I have many blessings to bestow. May God help me to be able to do this!
Looking around I see the leaves falling and I feel the cool breeze against my face. I know that fall has come with winter on the way. The seasons have come and gone so quickly. Time has passed so fast I wish it could slow down. Two of my granddaughters have begun working. My daughter has also started working. Where are we going with all this? Finances are tight and tension is high. No one seems to know where they are going. The young ones have no answers nor do they know what they want. Help us stop and smell the roses.
life is a challenge we must go on…I must go forward. Stop as I may…take a deep breath when I must…but keep moving forward. Sometimes I must ‘oil my hinges’ and I do not move as fast as I should, but I move. I find my thought process is not quite a sharp as it use to be and I must think again on some things where I use to respond quickly. I do need to focus more…I need Exfuze Focus which I take each day.
I was soooo frustrated with my granddaughter this morning and I let her know that her time was running out. With goals to be set there comes a time that one should evidence change in their lives. After a birthday luncheon with my youngest son and the family I returned home to fine she had bought some balloons and a small gift…a token of “I’m sorry and happy birthday”. Why do we have to come to a level of ‘frustrations’ before becoming aware of a need to change?
FATHER GOD Let me be that Tower of Gibraltar for my family, particularly my grandchildren. Let me stand firm on the Principles that you have set forth letting them flow into the lives of my grandchildren. I love them more than they will ever know or rather ever believe as they tend to see only the materialistic side and not their true inheritance.
Till next blog, Evelyn
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